I am currently applying for staff in a Minecraft server. I have been doing well and some current staff members are vouching for me. But today, while I was helping a confused player about the ownership of plots, I accidentally told him to do a command which I thought would only remove him from a plot, but the result was that the whole plot was cleared, i.e. all his possessions are lost. Gone forever. The command was never supposed to act in such a strange way.
It is impossible for him to get back his items, since the rules are very clear that there will be no refunds or rollbacks for someone to reclaim his possessions. At that point, I realised that I made a huge mistake, and I felt that I have failed to show that I am capable of being a staff.
The application is there, and more staffs will continue to review it until a decision is made -- whether I can become a staff or not. Players still have trust in me, and they believe that everyone make mistakes and I should not blame myself for this accidence, since the command was never supposed to act in such as strange way. But I cannot forgive myself since I made the player lose literally everything. I feel ashamed, and especially so if my staff application is accepted.
This may be a very small matter for you all, but I am feeling guilty for what I have done. And I do not feel comfortable if I get staff.
Should I ask a leadership team staff to remove the application for me, or should I continue to apply for staff?